Jetlag. Transportation. Not-Tempting-ness. Boys. Hospital.
or i could just say; i suck at speaking french.
those would be five wise words to pick; becuase thats how i feel when im here. everyone is so, fluent! the first day i could barelyunderstand what the crow they were saying. but im getting use to it more and more every day.
or i could say; i have gotten no sleep.
those would be great five words. guess what? on the 7 30 hour plane ride i got.. 20 min of sleep. no really, i'll explain later. i lied, i'll tell you about my plane ride now. it can be explained in two word; colin shibley.
but if i said that i would feel the need to include, gareth, hailey, natalie, and chantelle, my air plane buddies.
so i couldnt sleep because i hate every position you get on an airplane!
so i stayed up with gareth and colin. not to sound all girly and everything, but they are both so cute! colin is absolutely weird, but really cute, funny and nice. Gareth is... really cute and a real nice fellow.
Colin kept getting all hyper at like 3am. So Gareth asked me what would happen if we left him alone, and Gareth said he would eat his shoe... So Colin went and licked his shoe, said it didnt taste bad so he licked it again and said it tasted bad so i wouldnt eat it. it was really funny.
Then he saw us playing Pcoket God, and he called us nerds... and he started playing and got addicted. So they were my favorite about the plane ride... OH! and spit takes.
We chugged our water and ended up spilling it everywhere! :3
So to explain the other words;
Jetlag- I'm constantly freggen exausted. ): I'm still not used to the time change...
Transportation- I've had quite the time on transportation. 7:30h on plane. 5h on bus and 3h on Train. All in three days! Yay!
Not-Tempting-ness - Youre right, Zoé smokes, and her bf smokes weed. I got offered to buy things and to smoke, drink, do weed... everyone says you'll be tempted. but im not, at all.
Boys - I got a free hat because some guy tried to kiss me at a concert and i said no. so he gave me his hat to remember him by. (: cool guy. oh and gareth and colin, but i told you about them.
Hospital - While on the car ride home from the train station, Zoé's Mom gotta phone call about her dad being in the hospital.She cried. I remember seeing my mom burst in tears when she got the news. He has Cancer, just like my Grandpa did. I actually fucking hate cancer. Why the freig does it hafta exist? Killing good people for no reason.
Today we went to the hospital and i felt the need to go see Zoé's grandpa because i never went to see mine. But when i saw him in the chair the only person i saw was my grandpa, dying. asking for me, telling me its all gonna be okay. but you know what? it wasn't. It never is. It's never fucking okay. And cancer will fucking kill you.
Why couldnt he survive Hanna? Why him?
Why wasnt he strong enough?
What did I do wrong?
I prayed to God, every single fucking day. Just for him, and no one else. Told God about the reasons I admire mi abuelito. How it would be a,azing for him to get better. But the cancer spread, and my prayers only became stronger. But nothing worked. When i found my mom crying after he died, i always told her that he was in a better place. But why'd he hafta leqve so soon? And why'd he just leave me here? Why not me? Why him? Hanna, tears streaming down my face. I thought i was over this. Going to that hospital was the hardest thing i've done, walking throught he halls, it all comes back and just picks at a scar that hasn't healed.
Te Quiero Mucho, Abuelito Jose. Pero, porque te fuiste?
Agh, bad mood. Hope that was enough, I'll write soon. Love you Hanna, hope WSC is going good.
-La Nieta Abandonada
aka; Laura.
