Hello there darling Laura,
I hope all is well in your world because mine is a tad messed up, but for the most part, it is all swell. I will get to the messed up part later.
I got there at quarter to today, so I thought that was good time. We played head up head down for the flagpole game and Macey from our cabin won it and got to raise the flag. Breakfast was waffles, which were wonderful with all the fancy berries they had to accompany them. I never really liked waffles, but I think I am warming up to them. Chapel was fine because Winnie was with Tori again. We keep parading around the Chapel in a giant train, this happens everyday. It is fun though, I do admit. Sports and Games played soccer, but Tori did not want to play so she just hung out on the jungle gym while I watched from a distance. O'Dyole went over and stayed with her for a bit. In crafts, Victoria made a travel tic tac toe game, I remembered when we attempted to play on the canoe trip, in between canoes. Victoria finished that pretty fast so to everyone's amusement, she started splatter painting. When she was done, Phurbi helped her paint a picture of a horse that is now hanging in the craft room.
In Outdoor Survival today, they focused on making tents so Jitter hid parts of the tent around camp while the campers went to go search for them and then assembled the tent. Tori had a colouring book with her all day so she pretty much did that when things stopped amusing her. When the tent was finished, everyone went inside and hung out meanwhile Fiona and Jitter and I spoke about random videos on YouTube. Drama was just a giant game of non-stop Mafia. In which Temp successfully almost killed off everyone. Lunch was hot dogs and kraft dinner. Tori eats the funniest things. Her proportions are out of whack. Reanna sent me mail again today, with several vitamin C's attached to it. Just when I was getting sick too She's sweet. I had to sing some Spice Girls to get it though. Anyways, cabin time was chill, as always but the kids did their verses, we're almost done for the most part.
After lunch actually, Ace pulled me aside and was just talking to me about Tori and just said some stuff that I could try doing, and make sure to show authority and to just remember to keep doing certain things. She said not to worry about it at all and that I was doing great and it's not a problem. But it really, really bugged me. I think I should have been doing the best I could be and remembered to do those things without having to be told or asked. And I know Ace meant no harm and was only trying to help, but that just put me down. I had been feeling very bleh all day and a bit gag-y to tell you the truth. So that was one. I was also completely exhausted from being on the go 24/7. The counsellors all get breaks. They get free time off, and skills off, and time before and after devos. I get no time off, and I'm doing at least an extra 40% of my energy is put into just being with Tori. So yes, I was very tired, that's two. I am also sleep deprived from constantly writing to you, that's three. As well as I am on the verge of a spiritual breakdown, that's four. So several different things all building up and then Ace talking to me. That would be five. So I kind of broke down.
Yeah, I cried. Two years buddy, two year since I last cried. But I couldn't eve breathe today. I felt sick, I felt tired, I felt ridiculous, and stupid, and bad for wasting Winnie's time while she was with me. But she wanted to be there, basically to avoid sink the canoe. Which I missed due to my breakdown. Tori said we did good though. Anyways, Winnie came to the conclusion that I was doing amazing and everyone else can't stop talking about it. She thinks the solution to all my problems is to get me time off, which is really what I need. So she thinks that during Chapel I should take some time to relax and just have some down time. So after crying and hyperventilating on her bed, I went up to the Staff Room for half of free time because I was able to melt down during the entire game. My I remind you that everyone working there as a counsellor, doing what I am doing is between 17 and 25. And I am 14. Mhmm. I took my temperature and it's all normal so I'm not going to be sick. And after relaxing for a bit I felt a lot better. I slept for a bit on one of the couches then I started to read and was then emerged in a wonderful conversation about which tattoos all of us staff were planing to get and where and when. LT radioed Brenda and asked her to ask me to come down to the Waterfront and so I did. I guess someone told the campers I was sick because while I was walking back I was flooded with "Are you okay, Temp?' 'Temp, what happened?' "Do you feel better?" 'Temp!' *hugs* So that was really sweet.
That, and Noah barfing up cards and doing several tricks to amuse me. I am quite popular among the guy campers, which I enjoy because I'm a little tom-boy myself. Well, not really but I'm Haldon. You know what I mean. We're "specimens." When I got to the waterfront, LT just asked me if I was okay. It wasn't an actual conversation, but it was fine. Tori was upset. I think it's because I wasn't with her for the past hour. And kids with disabilities really need consistency. She kept trying to talk to LT, he is good with her. When we were leaving, she went in for a hug, and then didn't let go. Then proceeded to lick him. Which he turned to me for help, but I can't do anymore than she can. I did get her off though. It was entertaining. We headed back to the cabin and I Tom did the same kind of "You okay?" talk with me. Meanwhile Tori was hanging from my back so obviously everything was cool. We went to dinner which was tacos. Yeah baby. So good.
There was no Chapel today because we had High Lite. So that was giant scavenger hunt and tons of skits and songs and T-Ko spoke. However, I couldn't really listen because Tori decided to run away to the boys washroom, I could still hear from where I was though, so it was cool. They did that spit skit, bible skit, swimming pool skit, side skit, and toothpaste skit. Eww, toothpaste skit. So gross. Anyways, High Lite was wonderful. After it was done, Tori wanted to go talk to Zukko. She asked me to go tell him 'I want to stay with you forever. And I want to be your brother.' So he, being awesome came over and said that he would love to be her "brother forever" Squirttle and I were enjoying it. She is so boy crazy. Tunstle ran devos and we talked about things that we need to leave behind for God. The girls had lots of questions, so that was really cool. Ace stayed with us for devos because Krutch is still MIA. She's sick. But she's always been sick. I've only recently understood how sick she is/has been. I'm slightly worried and praying for her, but I hope she's okay. Ace had a laugh attack that came completely without any reason which caused Winnie, Pocho, Tunstle and I to just laugh spaz for a good 4 minutes while our campers just sat there staring at us. It was really funny. And it made no sense.
It's Bamboo's birthday tomorrow so Winnie is planing something special for him. I want to make Krutch a Get-Well-Soon-Card. I'm thinking about getting all the girls timbits tomorrow because that would be fun. And I feel nice. All the campers are so awesome though. I'm going to write down all their names so I don't forget them.
Bella. Jenna. Jazzy. Mariana. Victoria. Macey. Katia.. Petra. Carolina. // Porkchop. Winnie. Krutch. Kaityln
And of course, yours truly.
-Temp
